God gives us what we can handle

You know the saying "God only gives us what we can handle?" It's true. I must admit that there have been many a day when I have screamed at the heavens "YOU'VE GOT THE WRONG PERSON!! I CAN'T HANDLE THIS!!" But at the end of the day, when my son is curled up next to me, I easily remember--I CAN handle this. What is there to handle anyway? He is amazing. He is happy! He has no idea that he is not where he "should" be. That is only my own insecurity when I feel the pressure.

I continue to give him the best care I can. But I also remember that I chose to parent my kids differently. I want to allow both of them to be exactly who they are meant to be. "You're children are not your own. They come through you but are not of you." That is a quote by Kahlil Gibran that I probably butchered, but that is how I say it to myself when I need to. It helps me to remember that they are beautiful spirits in their own right, and that I have no idea what their time on this earth is supposed to be.

So I will continue to do what I can to ensure they are happy, healthy and always know they are loved--even when I lose my mind :) I gently remind them that I am human. I make mistakes. They are going to too. And no matter what, I will always love and support them.

All is well in my world.